To be honest with you, I was more than ready to leave 2019 in the past without a second thought, it has been a very intense year for me and I wanted to just look into 2020 without any reflection. But I felt like that wouldn’t be the right thing to do, because a lot of wonderful things happened in 2019. I have been through it all this year, and I feel like I need to take the time to look through the photos, reflect on what I learned and take the lessons into the future.
I had some tough moments, but I also had some wonderful and exciting moments that I am proud of despite everything. I thought that to honour the year that was I would go through all of the wonderful (and not so great things) that happened this year, and I want to think of it as a year of strength and learning.
1) I went away a couple of times with my partner, and we had lots of adventures together, even if it was only to a museum down the road or down the coast, it was great to spend quality time with him. We also tried lots of new things, and we discovered a love of bouldering.
2) I had so much fun with all of my beautiful friends this year, my old and new friends, and they all introduced me to new things, whether it be a dodgeball team or a book club, or if its getting me out of my funk and supporting me when I felt down.
3) We moved out of our tiny studio apartment in May and into a one bedroom in a different area of the city which was an exciting adventure, and we had a great time decorating and exploring the area together.
4) I graduated from my masters degree
5) I got a role in my dream industry
6) I wrote 60k of my book, which wasn’t a full draft but I am going to give myself the space to be proud because thats a lot of words!
7) I started a new business with my friend and so far its going swimmingly. It is a candle business and being able to create a business based on our shared values has been an amazing experience.
8) Adopted my beautiful kitten Lilith, who is sleeping next to me as I write this, but has been an injection of joy and cheekiness into my life.
9) I got to spend a lot of quality time with my family as well, it was a really hard year for my family so I’m glad we had time to go on day trips, have dinners together and enjoy each others company.
1) Fleabag and Killing Eve- I started watching Killing Eve for a book club and I couldn’t stop, and I jumped straight into Fleabag and they were easily my favourite series of the year. I’m at the point now where I will watch anything that Phoebe Waller Bridge is involved with. 2) Bring me to the Horizon – I know they have been around for a while now, but I got the opportunity to see them when they came to Sydney and I had the best time. Their album Amo was one of my most played albums of the year.
3) Normon Fucking Rockwell – Lana Del Rey was the artist of the decade for me and this album is now fused into my soul.
4) Bouldering – How can climbing a wall be so fun?
1) Save money- This was a bit of a disappointing goal for me, and I wish I had done better. But I did learn some valuable lessons to go into 2020 with and I think 2019 will be the foundation for me to save money in the year to come.
2) Buy a car and get my driving licence- This goal was really put on the back burner for me, but I didn’t get my licence. I did however, get a car! So 2020 is the year.
3) Have a complete draft of sparks- I officially have 60 184 words, so although it was not a complete draft, I’m still pretty happy with myself.
4) Travel to two new places- I didn’t really get to travel much this year but I did get a plan together, which will hopefully come to fruition in 2020.
5) Grow and develop my blog- I did aim to bring my blog up in quality in 2019 and I think I did make steps to doing that, and I am proud of the content I did create. I hope to build on that this year!
6) Learn two new skills- I learnt to boulder and I started to learn Russian
7) Read 100 books – I read 88, which wasn’t quite my goal but is still respectable.
8) Work out consistently and get flexible – This was a big win for me, I work out between 5-6 times a week and my yoga practice did get better, and I ran the City to Surf as well. I’m excited to build on it more in 2020.
9) Get a pet- Yep!
My favourite books
1) Catch and Kill: Lies, Spires and a Conspiracy to protect predators by Ronan Farrow
2) Silence of the Girls by Pat Barker
3) The Diviners Series by Libba Bray
4) Atomic Habits: An Easy and Proven Way to Build Good Habits and Break Bad Ones by James Clear
5) Educated by Tara Westover
6) The Winternight Trilogy by Katherine Arden
7) The Shades of Magic Series by VE Schwab
The Lessons I learnt this year
1) It’s so important to know what you’re worth and fight for it
2) You can be miserable and fail at the ‘safe’ career option too, so you might as well chase your dreams
3) It’s always better to choose to be kind
4) Theres no way to do everything at once, you have to focus on one thing at a time in order to acheive anything substantial
5) Friends are so important
6) Change doesn’t come in one dramatic event, its days and weeks and years of hard work that makes the change
7) In order to keep improving, I don’t have to be mean to myself, I have intrinsic value. I can say I am well and truely done with trying to ‘fix’ myself, and I want to continually work on loving myself.
8) You can strive to be a little bit better every single day
9) My body is here to do things, not look a certain way
10) ‘Everything is going according to plan’
11) Gratitude is everything
12) Always ask for new opportunities
13) The only way to get better at something is to go through the uncomfortable ‘I’m bad’ phase which is vulnerable and vital
14) It’s vital to have adventures as much as possible
15)If you can’t be totally silly and crazy with your partner, they’re not the one
16) Be protective of your space, both physical and mental, you’re allowed to have boundaries and space to decompress and relax
17) You either pick a time to relax and take a break, or your body will choose for you.
18) Everyone has something to teach you
19) If you make the good habits easier to do than the bad habits, its more fun to do it
Bring on the 20s! I want you to know that whatever you have achieved, even if it’s just getting through the day, that is enough and should be celebrated. As I get older my hopes and goals change, I no longer celebrate just the big successes, I aim to make memories, and I have a more holistic approach of what makes me happy and how I want to make memories.
Bring on 2020